Birthdays, Interviews & Insomnia

       So today is my dads birthday which I find cool, I guess. I had to dress up today for my high school prep class. I got to wear the outfit all day which was better than the norm. The purpose was supposed to be that we dress professional for our mock interviews for high school because most of us have interviews coming up. So everything was out of 10 and for most I got 8 but in two other things a 7. One was conversational and the other was handshake.

       My handshake was apparently selfconscious and I talked a little too fast but she understood what I was saying. Overall I got a 7 but that makes no sense but ok. I think there were a couple things that could have been improved but I think I deserved an 8. Nothing much else has happened.

    I mean I got another paper assigned to me from the same teacher that assigned a paper, project and other work over break. But so far I have been doing well keeping up completing her work. I enjoy writing so it wasn't too much of a problem, only that she assigned the work.

      I believe I have sleep insomnia. I wake up at about 4 or 5 am and go back to sleep, but I am awake for a while. I think that's why I put on music at night because it helps me sleep. So when I do wake up I have the music to put me back to sleep. In a way I feel connected to the night and nocturnal animals.

       For example, when I am in the car at night I like looking at the moon or when I can see the moon I like looking. I also like getting jewelry of nocturnal animals because I feel in a way we are the same because we love the night. I have a really pretty mini wolf head necklace and I rub it whenever its night or night is coming for some weird reason. I also want a moonstone but it is very hard for me to find.

      I can stay up till 2am and my body wakes me up at about 7 or 8 am and feel fine, maybe a bit sleepy. It's like I am a night owl but during the day its not the same. Like I prefer darkness to light at times and vice versa for the other times. But sometimes I really do love the light, sunlight, because it feels warm, bright and inviting in a way. This relationship is like the same thing with hot and cold.

    Well I need to practice my monologues so,

Until next time,

Mattie