Useful Apps

       So now I have gotten this app so it is easier for me to update. It's pretty cool and simple to, works really well. So I'm excited yet nervous because I have an audition at Duke Ellington School of The Arts. I'm in for theater and no for those, if any, that are reading this I'm not just some girl who says that. I love the theater. But the cool thing is that my stepmother went there and I did not even know until recently which is crazy.

      At first I was thinking of not going but I have made up my mind that I will and try my best; so that way I can prove others wrong. I am not just some lazy girl who makes good grades. No I am something more and I want to prove to those who do doubt me that I am capable of taking on responsibility is if I did go there. So let's just hope that I do not end up choking.

      But also in the topic of high schools I am very nervous. It's nauseous in a way thinking that one day I will be out in high school and actually having to be mature. When you're in high schools others expect you to act mature and responsible at all times. But not everybody does I will say. I mean I know the appropriate times for things but I still do stupid things. I'm young and still young. That's what the teenage years are: learning how to be a responsible yet productive adult who can make it in society or world.

        I also get my acceptance or rejection letters in the end of February and early March. I know it will be a bit of a confusing time for me because I know I will have to make a decision soon on what I choose. But the thing I fear most is time. I can remember sitting in class in November and now It's not even 2012 anymore. I know that time waits for no one but It's just weird the way it goes so quickly. For example, earlier today my teacher acknowledged the fact that we only had a couple months before we left. And for me I don't think I'm ready for time to pass so quickly but I do prepare everyday without even realizing my intentions.

      I have decided not to do new years resolutions because I usually never really plan. I mean I do have a few ideas but I'm not even sure if I believe that I can carry it out. But one thing I will do is study more. I know that everyone says that but I am serious. I want to actually sit down with the books in front of me and studying what I already learned. I have recently acquired that studying is a really good thing. Before I would cram before a test and it would help, but I would rather spend that time trying to do other things with my life.

       Time is incorporated in all of these things but time for me isn't also a bad thing. My birthday is July 1st so I will be 14 then. That is one thing that I cannot wait for. It's just a bit weird for me because I remember a 9 year old girl who was the same as I am now except I am almost 14. I have been waiting to turn 14 to do all the things I couldn't do before but now I know I don't just gain the fun things but more responsiblity.

       I took a quick break from doing other things just to write this and how I felt earlier today. I believe I will post again after dinner about who knows what. Maybe my passion for BAKING not cooking big difference. (I also prefer the alias Mattie if I have not mentioned already. Its my initials except girlified, if that's a word)

With inspiration,

Mattie